I haven’t written this week due to computer problems. My computer is crashing in the midst of a Word document as I write. It is very frustrating, and I lose my train of thought. In addition, I was synchronizing my iPad and the iTunes wanted me to update many applications. At first, I clicked on “update all” and it gave me a message that it would take “1 day”. I let it update as many as it could in the evening and then I closed the program.
The next night I just updated one application which was quite large. I think the wireless connection I have here is very slow but it did update that application in 4 hours – which was my whole evening! I don’t use the computer while it is downloading updates as it just slows everything down.
I have to admit I feel a bit lazy since I came to my vacation condo. The weather at home has been terrible with temperatures at night in the single digits and highs in the day have been only in the teens. Add to that some snow, and I am so thankful to be here and not there.
I find myself saying extra prayers for dad – for God to keep him well not only for dad, but also so that I won’t have to return home during the terribly cold weather! For I know that even if I were at home now, I wouldn’t be visiting dad much as I don’t like to go out when it is so cold and nasty! I feel so selfish, but I sure don’t want to have to go home!
I called dad yesterday and woke him up again! It was 3 in the afternoon and he was napping in his recliner. I had to work at it to just keep him on the phone for 3 minutes. He asked when I was coming home, as he usually does, and I gave a vague answer as I don’t like to make it sound like such a long time. He commented that it would be “a long time” and I said I was waiting for the temperatures to warm up there.
He said it wasn’t that cold and I said: “Twelve degrees, dad?” Oh, he said, it didn’t bother him as he doesn’t go out that much. I laughed and told him I was waiting until warmer weather before I came home. In the meantime he has the companions coming most days and my son and grandson on weekends. He is mostly OK with that, but I know he misses me and I miss him too.
I don’t like to wish away my beautiful warm vacation, but I would also like to be home (in warmer weather) where I would have access to my car and be able to visit dad many times a week. He is really doing better this year and missing me less, but I still feel like I am shirking my duty by being away. Then I remind myself that my brother and sister neither visit dad nor feel bad about not visiting. That helps a little, but I will be glad to return home to dad and my normal routine.